Thursday, December 22, 2005

It's Beginning to Look a Lot Like Krishna...

My family's always kind of low-key about Christmas. We don't have room for a real tree anymore, and Mom rarely has ambition for any kind of decoration. This year, our sum total of Christmas spirit extends to some different bells on the door, a little fiberoptic tree by the window, and red plaid curtains in the doorway to the kitchen. Well, that and watching Christmas movies, that much gets done quite a bit. We bought the Patrick Stewart version of A Christmas Carol this year... He's a dang good actor, but I don't care as much for how they did the story this time. It could be that I love the George C. Scott version because I grew up with it, though...

It's been melting all week, which means we could have a gray Christmas. I don't mind that, usually, but I also know better than to make assumptions. Idaho weather does whatever it darnwell feels like, and it's got a perverse sense of humor. We've been putting in a few hours here and there getting the shop cleaned up and things ready to sell, even though there's a shortage of buyers. Someone did come and take the freezer off our hands, but the offer we got for the tables and chairs hasn't come through yet. Trying not to worry too much about it, and the approaching holiday is managing to be slightly distracting.

Once again, my Christmas endeavors centered primarily around Westwood discount. I can never afford to give expensive gifts, but by now no one expects that anyway. At least they should find my presents amusing or entertaining, and if they don't then they can dispose of them without offending me.

All in all, I've been feeling kinda meh this week. Christmas is nice and all in theory, but it's hard to get excited when outside your house is rampaging commercialism and inside is vague lip-service. I remember always being excited about Christmas when I was a kid, where did that go? Probably the same place my excitement about life in general went. Well, I've got a lot of things weighing on me lately, that's a lot of it right there. It's really not so bad, I've got family members I consider friends, I'm not lacking anything essential materially, I've got creative things to do to keep me occupied, and things can always get better. I'm just the type who obsesses about things I don't have...

This wasn't going to be a depressed post when I started, but I guess that just happens when I start thinking about my life. Maybe tomorrow I'll go for a walk in the hazy sunlight or something... In the meantime, I wish everyone I care about a Merry Christmas (not a Happy Holidays or any other fragging PC euphemism, I may not be a Christian anymore but I still celebrate Christmas), and may you keep your enemies close and your loved ones closer...

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